There may be an actual name for how I have felt for the past several years right around the New Year. In the Fall, I have great anticipation of a New Year, a clean slate, a detox, a good cleaning. But just this year I began to realize that once the clock strikes midnight, I feel a bit anxious. The pressure of new goals, a new word for the year and filling a blank page weighs a bit heavy. It’s almost like a fog hovers until about February. I have a few thoughts on why it feels this way.
Let’s break this down.
The holidays come with a price. Even this year, when I intentionally put my focus on what matters during the holidays, it’s still out of the ordinary. The time spent is different, the money spent is different, the expectations are different. This year I worked really hard to be prepared to “unplug” during the time my kids were home from school. I wanted to be without distraction and present in the moments of the holidays. I work to do this during the year too, but I wanted to FULLY UNPLUG over the break. It was truly wonderful to do this and to be absolutely present. However, I believe this complete unplug from work (in my work from home scenario) makes it extremely hard to get back in my groove once the kids are back in school and the work must be picked back up! Now let’s pause…I’m not complaining about my job OR my circumstances. I’m simply getting vulnerable about how a new year makes me feel.
I’m a self-starter, usually very intrinsically motivated. I consider myself a creative (and actually, we all are…by design!). I tend to see myself, as I’m sure others do, as unorganized. THIS ALL plays a factor in my new year “issues” I’m sure. Because of the first few descriptions of myself, I feel a need to set goals, evaluate, plan and be prepared for a “successful” and productive year, but when you tend to be a bit unorganized, this is where it gets a bit tricky and I find myself somewhat anxious when midnight strikes.
So what am I going to do about it?
- Cut myself some slack. Even the most successful people have to extend grace.
- Get up and get moving. When I get myself up and “at em” early, I feel ready to tackle my goals and plans.
- Set a New Routine for the new season and new plans. This season and year won’t look the same and that’s not all bad. Finding a rhythm is a good thing and for me it produces confidence.
- Tackle “all the things” ONE STEP at A TIME. I find myself feeling anxious about a new year because there are so many new goals and plans and ideas. I have to remind myself that I only need to take one step at a time.
- Set my Priorities. And stick with them. I am still focused on my best YES and I have to keep my filters in place to keep my priorities in check.
- Surround myself with good people. This is huge to me. When I surround myself with people who want good for me and are there to cheer me on and lift me up, I’m in a good space.
It’s almost February and aside from the unexpected illness that tormented our home and the snow that was a sweet surprise…I do believe I’m coming out of the fog quite nicely and looking forward to a pretty amazing year! Or at least that’s how I’m choosing to step into the year…with GREAT EXPECTATIONS!